this sickness

she found herself in his room!
felt kinna like a whore eventhough the neighbours were the only colored ones!
they brought her sweets and flowers alongside with their fake smiles.
y did they even have2pretend they r happy hes given up his devotion?
strange?!
but all was strange that night of hers.
she wasnt even afraid!
felt like she belonged.
then noticed the whilte stuff and carelessly felt like tryin some for the 1rst time,
tasted quite a bit,
nothing happened,
nothing felt.
he suggested4her2try some between lips and teeth, flesh and bone
all was goin on in that room smelt of flesh and blood, like life itself!
almost like a medicine needed she rubbed it throught2her self
yet nothin!
she kissed his watery lips she did not enjoy
y then did she choose2?
still sth.there always gave her some satisfaction.
the feeling of wanting to b loved_when2much makes slaves of us all!
the feelin of wantin2b!